'i need sometime by myself,
without anybody else'
well.. you know me...
im sarcastic
im emotional
im weird
im wesley
and most importantly of all, im sick and tired of this wretched world.
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Saturday, December 26, 2015, 1:18 AM
back again... to this long forgotten space.this year, to be really frank, had been kind to me.
somehow.
fell in love.
went travelling, with different groups.
started my driving lesson and resumed my bike lesson (yes i know... procrastination's a bitch).
cut down on drinking.
haven't smoked in more than a month.
made new friends, albeit losing some.
but next year, ain't so sure.
gonna leave my iron rice bowl job.
and go backpacking.
one year?
two?
not sure.
but all i know is that when i come back, im gonna start from zero.
right from the beginning.
27 and having nothing.
that's life eh?
mid life crisis?
heh.
fuck this.
just gonna take this leap of faith.
Tuesday, April 14, 2015, 7:11 PM
even though we barely knew each other.even though we havent spent much time together.
we fell too fast, fell too soon.
i love you, girl.
Wednesday, March 04, 2015, 12:34 AM
5 months since my last post.how time flies.
it's that time in my life where i ask myself "what have i accomplished in the last 5 months?"
probably nothing.
sucks.
and i met a girl.
one part of me is telling myself to go for it.
the other?
i make a shitty boyfriend anyway.
i should probably not ruin her life.
this shitty fluttering sour-ness in my heart.
i hate that feelings.
please go away.
:(
i want to cry no more.
i want to be sad no more.
so i should probably stop talking to you right?
:(
Wednesday, October 22, 2014, 9:41 AM
drinking lesser nowadays.it's about time as well.
doesnt solve anything.
yes, i know im fucked up.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014, 10:29 PM
everyday, it's just wake up, work, and survive.and at the end of it, we die.
honestly, there's really nothing stopping me from jumping right to the last step.
but i want to believe.
i want to believe im meant for something great.
yes, im crazy, i know.
and i need help, i know that too.
but nobody can help me.
only i can help myself.
but first, i need to find myself.
im lost in the darkness so deep, light cant reach me.
but im trying to reach out.
so please, bear with me.
:(
Tuesday, August 26, 2014, 2:34 AM
with that gone, i think i might have just lost you forever.280614/050714
Tuesday, July 08, 2014, 10:23 AM
8D7N.it's the first time in so long i felt normal.
no worries, no anger, no sadness.
life was almost... perfect.
but all good things had to come to an end.
:(
i missed my friends.
the awesome band of burdens.
even though i knew them for less than a year, the bonds we had...
almost impossible.
and i miss phuket too.
the sun, the sea, the beach, the view, the hotel, the night spots, the girls, the food...
everything.
especially the hotel.
i think things wouldnt be the same if we had booked other hotel.
we wouldnt be 5 steps away from each other.
we might not have discovered tai pan.
and we might not have had so much fun together.
i miss the fucking adventures.
getting lost on the highway.
getting lost in a 'nature trail' which in actual fact is a fucking forest while looking for a fucking waterfall.
getting dragged by ladyboys while walking down bangla street.
getting scammed buying a overpriced 'weed' which is actually a cigarette.
and most of all, exploring new places; the big buddha, phrom thep cape, windmill viewpoint, sea view elephant camp, karon view point, after beach bar, number 6 restaurant, momo restaurant, you & me restaurant...
one week is not enough.
should have taken a one month break.
i need a time machine.
290314-310314. 72 hours in taipei with the awesome bunch.
Tuesday, April 01, 2014, 7:18 PM
72 Hours in Taipei. #swccso yup, blogging it down because this is one adventure i dont want to forget.
yes, i have a deteriorating memory, and that sucks.
i tend to think i wont have long to live anyway, despite being superman.
meh, whatever.
day 1.
touched down at around 6, boarded the freego bus and reached CityInn Ximending at around 8.
settled everything, deposited our bags, and headed over to SongShan Cultural & Creative Park.
shinchan gallery!
spammed photos, a fuckload of them.
or rather, a fuckload of them during the trip.
gonna upload them soon.
tried finding the panda exhibition thingy to no avail (thanks uh shaun!), so yea, walked around a little and checked in at the hotel for a power nap before heading over to Taipei Underground Mall and then Shilin Night Market.
it rained, didnt dampened our mood, and all the 'jiang mu cha' nonsense hahaha.
omg im missing the trip already. :(
back to the hotel after, washed up, and it's clubbing time!
Babe18, and it's still as fun as ever.
all the drunk people.
except me, duh.
day 2.
woke up pretty late, and okay, i was the last actually.
went for a light local breakfast at one of the eateries nearby, shopped around xmd area a little and went to have Ma La Steamboat Specialist, one of the best steamboat i've eaten in a long time.
SOGO, Raohe Night Market, and Wu Fen Pu, before grabbing a couple of beers and heading back to the hotel.
for our last night in Taipei, we drank, joked, went crazy, and disturbed one another till the dead of the night.
good thing there's nobody living next to us (i think so... hopefully...).
so yea, day 3.
last day.
ChiaTe to get last minute local delights back, and Din Tai Fung for lunch.
the egg tart from chiate is pretty awesome.
went back to the hotel to packed up, tipped the housekeeper because of the mess we made, and off we go. :(
1200ntd for a cab right to the airport.
pretty reasonable.
yea.
that pretty much sums most of the things up.
le sigh.
i miss everything about this trip.
:(
:)
nah.
gonna smile.
all this brighten up my darkened soul a little.
im really glad to have family like this.
:')
6:48 PM
yup.i still miss you at times.
:|
Sunday, March 16, 2014, 9:41 PM
time for some life updates.successfully quitted drinking. (i think.)
there really isnt anything pulling me back to a pub.
or club.
time to find a new hobby.
probably after the next 2 or 3 months.
gotta start clearing some debts.
shall pick up boxing after.
or mma.
most likely back at impact.
and oh, forex.
need to study more.
and im still looking for guarantor for my sign on bounty.
anyone?
pretty please.
okay, i really dont know what im doing with my life.
sigh.
Sunday, March 02, 2014, 11:36 PM
wow.the sense of betrayal.
that shit actually hurts.
it actually hurts more than seeing the person you like, like somebody else.
the fuck is this feeling?